After having two pregnancies back to back, it’s easy for me to look in the mirror and not love what I see. I have obviously been tall and slender all my life but now I am beginning to take on another form. Loving the way I look in the mirror became harder and harder for me.
When I make comments about my looks, most people say “you look great!” or “You are tall and slim, you need to stop!” but the truth is that none of that matters unless I look in the mirror and love what I see. When I get dressed in the morning I’m always frowning at my stomach with stretch marks, or the extra flab that protrudes from my stomach or my now sagging breasts. My thighs and waist are bigger than ever and I’m having a time getting used to it.
Now,I know that I’m not huge or anything but it still is an adjustment. One day I was being so hard on myself and no matter how many times my husband complimented me, I found a way to say something negative about my looks. Then the Holy Spirit had to get on me. I heard the Lord say “Tara, do you know how blessed you are?” and my carnal mind thought “Blessed? To look like this?” and the Lord said “Yes! You are blessed! You safely delivered not two but three healthy babies with no complications within two years! You really only have about 6 or 7 lingering pounds that you didn’t lose after birth. You didn’t have to have a c-section with a scar. Sure you have a few stretch marks but you had the ability to bare children.” I immediately began to feel bad. Wow! How many times do we forget how blessed we truly are? We look at the negative things instead of looking at the blessing.
I instantly felt bad and repented. I had to ask God to forgive me and the way I was acting about my appearance after two pregnancies. I thanked Him for all the blessings that have come with this pregnancy, especially losing most of my weight not once but twice. I had to begin honestly loving the new skin I was in. I didn’t just repent and then instantly fall in love with my looks. I took it one day at a time and I asked God to help me with this.
If I’m honest, I’m still taking it a day at a time . I profess things over myself and over my body! I’m so thankful for my 3 babies, my blessings. I’m thankful that I’m healthy with no deformities or missing limbs. I’m thankful for every roll, every stretch mark, every cellulite wrinkle and every sagging body part that I now have. A friend of mine asked me “Do you know how many women (who can’t have kids) would love to take whatever weight gain or stretch mark that you have? They would switch places with you anyday!”. That hit me like a ton of bricks!
We don’t realize how we take the things we are blessed with for granted. Lord, I promise that I am truly learning to love the skin I’m in.
The Martin Family- April 2019